I changed my mind

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When I was younger, I wanted a life that emulated that of my parent’s; married with kids and a house by the time I was 22 years old.

Lol, okay. Next joke please!

I’m 22 in six months and haven’t even made it past a second date with someone in the last 18 months, let alone be anywhere near a marriage, moving out of my mums or a pregnancy deadline!

But not only that- I’ve decided that I want a completely different life for myself than the one that I envisioned when I was younger. I wanted to live in a big house with a husband who had a good job while I stayed at home looking after our two children, a son and a daughter, and our assortment of pets. That was my dream- and now, to me, it seems like such a sad one! Of course, there were dream jobs I wanted- mainly to be a singer or in a band, or a writer (Jacqueline Wilson was my biggest inspiration), then as I reached 11/12/13 I wanted to work in radio and TV and be Fearne Cotton, but ultimately I wanted to be a mum and a wife, above anything else. I’ve always loved babies and been incredibly maternal, mothering a lot of my friends, and I’m also a total romantic at heart- I love being in a relationship and, as weird as it sounds, I’m good at being in one too.

I've always been very maternal with babies! 

So…what changed?

I got older! No, but really, that’s all that’s changed. I got older, my perception of the world changed and I gained different life experiences that made me want different things. 

First of all, I became incredibly career driven. At 18 I found out what I really wanted to do with my life and I have worked incredibly hard at it every single day since then. Every. Single. Day. I am so driven and so ambitious, I can’t imagine having to deal with running a family home and having kids while trying to maintain a successful career. Obviously I know that it's totally possible to do this, I know people who successfully do both, and this is a mind set that could change in future, but right now that’s the headspace I’m in.

"Call me selfish, call me insane, but it’s my life and that’s what I want"

In addition to this, I watched my parents go through a divorce, as well as going through a nasty break up myself and both of these incidents really just changed my outlook on relationships. I find it a real struggle to open up to people now, and I’ve realised that even relationships you think might last forever, probably won’t. I’m sure I’ll become a little less cynical in future, perhaps if I find someone I really do like (love? Lol, maybe) but for now, I just feel like I’m probably going to spend my life being an independent woman, a glamorous aunt to any children my sisters may have and a cool ‘aunt’ to the babies my friends may have. I’ll be a bit like Samantha in SITC but a little less provocative…

I’m also incredibly selfish. I know how much alteration happens to your body when your pregnant and when you have a baby, from physical changes to mental and emotional changes and I just don’t want to do that to myself. I love myself, my body and where I'm at within myself, and I have worked incredibly hard to reach that stage; I don’t want it to change. I also don’t want to weaken my pelvic floor so that I wee whenever I sneeze, alter my hormone balance so I don't feel like myself in the way that I used to and everything else that often isn’t spoken about publicly when it comes to pregnancy. I have nothing but utter respect for women who do have babies, and have seen firsthand just how hard being a parent can be, but I really feel like it’s not for me!

It's taken me such a long time to feel comfortable in my own skin and get over my incredibly low mental health dip.

Furthermore, have you seen the state of the world right now? Do I really want to bring a child into this mess, this God awful mess? No, I don’t think so. I don’t want to bring a child into the world where they could die at a concert of their favourite singer or band, be taken hostage by ISIS, suffer at the hands of relentless online bullies, fall pregnant and not be able to get an abortion should they choose to or suffer because they’re a woman in a world that only favours men. I’d much rather adopt a child who is already living in this cruel world and is in need of a loving home than bring a new one into this world.

This might change again- maybe in two years, maybe in five, maybe in ten, or maybe never! Who knows? All I know is that this is the head space I am in now- no kids and no marriage. I want to just happily be me and sail through life being successful, accomplished and happy! Call me selfish, call me insane, but it’s my life and that’s what I want.

What are your goals in life? Have they changed since you were younger? Share yours with me in the comments below!

Love from,
Florence Grace

Being Bridget Jones

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So often you’ll see girls writing online about how they’re like Bridget Jones because they are spending a Saturday night in with a tub of ice cream instead of going out on the ‘sesh’. And you’ll see all these other girls commenting in agreement ‘omg yes gal me too #singlelife #crazycatlady’.

Well, I’m here to set you all straight. I am the real Bridget Jones. And not just because I am partial to a tub of Ben and Jerry's on a Saturday night either. Let me tell you why…

1)      ‘Yes I will always be just a little bit fat!’
This is one of Bridget’s infamous quotes from the film as she tries to defend herself to her boyfriend, Mark. I am this girl. I’m never going to be a size 6, I will always opt for a pizza over a salad, I absolutely despise exercise of any kind and so yes, I will always be just a little bit fat! You see that roll I have when I sit down, or wear a crop top? That’s from the share bag of doritos I enjoyed all by myself last night while watching Bridget Jones. Suck it. I think I look great.

2)      I have sung ‘All By Myself’ into a hairbrush home alone and felt every word.
Because hey, we’ve all been through that kind of break up right? Unfortunately for my family, neighbours, and anyone else in a five mile radius, I had a whole soundtrack to sing along to, not just Celine Dion. I can't believe I'm confessing this online.

3)      I keep a journal
Well, it’s a blog and a Twitter feed, but all those thoughts that Bridget has and shares on paper? I share with you guys on here. You all read my endless break up blog posts (and absolutely loved them, can I just point out) and you all read about my dating experiences on Twitter. I am a bit of an over sharer- like Bridget!

4)      I have a great gang of friends
I mean, they’ve never taken me on a spontaneous trip to Paris (guys, come on), but they do give me great advice like ‘don’t iron your hair’. No, on a real though, I think my little gang is just as fab as Bridget’s, although I don’t have any famous 90’s singers in it…yet.

5)      I can’t cook
Remember her blue string soup? Yeah. I can’t even cook soup, let alone make it from scratch. Wow, could I actually be worse than Bridget Jones?!

6)      I continuously try and fail to get the attention of the man I like
…only to get attention from a man that I don’t like. Why is life so cruel?! Just let the guy I like drop me a message already, rather than all these has beens cropping up months later trying to rekindle something that wasn’t ever even there!

There is one difference between me and Bridget- I don’t own big knickers! In fact, it’s a laughing matter between some of my friends and I as to what they consider ‘granny pants’ and ‘big knickers’ and what I do- however, that is a little TMI that I won’t be sharing! Regardless, there is so much more to being Bridget Jones than eating ice cream on a Saturday night- believe me, I know!

On a scale of 1-10, how Bridget Jones are you? Let me know in the comments below!

Love from,
Florence Grace

Being a Communications Officer

When I started my new job as a Communications Officer, I got a lot of questions about what my new role actually was and the kinds of things it entailed. Justine from Girl Gone Dreamer asked if I would do a blog post on the subject- and so here it is, better late than never! So, what does a Communications Officer actually do?

Handle Social Media
Anyone who knows me will know how much I adore social media, so I was thrilled when I found out that a huge portion of my job role was to handle the company’s social media. I help to run the Twitter and Facebook account and soon might even be looking into doing some YouTube work too. I take a lot of joy in doing this and always get so excited whenever somebody tweets us, because then I get to tweet back! 

Internal Communications
I have been told by my colleagues that internal comms are my strength, which I was thrilled to hear, given that I’ve never done them before! I would say internal comms is definitely the main bulk of my job- I write endless news bulletins, which I absolutely love doing, I create content for the newsletter, I liase with staff about events they might be doing or fundraising they might be participating in (we are a very charitable company, there’s always fundraising going on with someone!) so I can write about it to raise awareness and eventually I’ll be working on creating campaigns too.

Media Enquiries
Yesterday I dealt with my first ever media enquiry! Boy, oh boy are they harder than they look! Writing a press release is actually far more complex than I ever imagined- I assumed you just wrote a brief paragraph or two on the relevant topic and then sent it to the right people but how wrong was I! There is so much more to it than that and I am definitely still learning.

Putting on Events
Event management is not really something I expected to be doing as a Communications Officer, but it’s actually quite a big part of what I do! Hosting events for both members of staff and members of the public, the events could be charity fundraising events or more serious meetings. At the moment, I’m in the process of organising a conference for 200 people! It’s brand new to me and definitely a challenge but one that I’m enjoying!

So as you can see my role is very exciting, very busy and also very varied! No two days are the same and there is always something different to do, which is good- it means I don’t get bored!

Being a Communications Officer is a role I didn’t even know existed or would have even considered, but I’m so glad I stumbled across the role because I absolutely love it!

What’s your dream job? Have you already landed it? Let me know in the comments below!

Love from,
Florence Grace 

Where I'm at now

I’ve never been so happy with my life- ever. I genuinely mean that too. Growing up, there was always one issue or another going on in my life, whether it was me being bullied, relationship or friendship problems, body confidence issues or dealing with my parents’ divorce; there just always seemed to be something going on to detract from my happiness.

So you can only imagine my surprise when I came to the realisation the other week that, for the first time in my life, everything is good.

"I just wish that younger me had known that it was possible to be this happy all of the time."

I honestly am at a place in my life where, for the first time ever, everything is going really well. I started my new job, which I’m really excelling at and absolutely loving. I have a buzzing social life and am surrounded by all of the best people I’ve ever known. I’m in a good place financially, I’ve got some exciting travel plans to look forward to, as well as other upcoming events that will be a lot of fun. I’ve got a new found confidence in myself and have finally learnt to love my body. What more could a girl want?

Being an aunty to Abby's beautiful little baby certainly puts a smile on my face!

I really feel like it’s about time everything looked up for me. I’ve gone through a lot of hard times and struggles in my life, particularly in my teenage years where I was bullied continuously, went through some really low points and had to deal with my parents divorce too. It’s a relief to me now that my twenties are on track to be the happiest years of my life so far- I only hope they stay as good as they've been so far!

Now that I’m so happy all of the time, it makes me angry to think about all of the time that I wasted being sad- and over such trivial things most of the time too! I’m more than making up that lost time now- I just wish that younger me had known that it was possible to be this happy all of the time.

Finally, I'm learning to love myself completely.

It’s easy for me to preach about happiness and self love and confidence now that I’ve finally reached this positive place, but as someone who has spent so many years being miserable and unhappy with all aspects of her life, I think I’m obliged to tell you that it can get better- that it does get better. It’s all about your mind set and the lifestyle you choose to live, really. 

Change your outlook on things. Cut off people who don’t add value to your life. Do more of what you enjoy and less of what you don’t. Pamper yourself often. Be healthy. Get enough sleep. All of these small changes will contribute to one big change.

Life is too short to be anything other than happy. I’m sad it’s taken me this long to realise it, but glad that I’ve finally learnt. I have never been so content, so at peace within myself- so bloody happy. 

It’s never too late to turn it all around.

Love from,
Florence Grace 

Printing with Printiki*

Growing up, my bedroom walls were covered from floor to ceiling in photos of me and my friends- when I moved house and had to take them down it was heartbreaking! I also fell in love with photography and was going to study it at university, before choosing to study it at my local college instead.

Photo's are just so special to me, and I take them all the time. I'm one of those girls who snapchats every single moment of her life, just so I can relive the memories later on. I love editing photos to make them look pretty for Instagram, I just adore being able to capture special moments in life and being able to share them with the world. 

Something I always forget to do now that I am older and have a busier lifestyle is print my photos out. It seems such a task to trek to my local Boots or Jessops and pay extortionate amounts to print out small quantities of photos. So imagine my absolute joy when I discovered Printiki, a photo printing website, through a competition run by Jemma from Dorkface Blog. You can imagine how much happier I was when they kindly approached me and asked if I wanted to review one of their products on my blog. Of course, I said yes! 

Printiki offer a wide range of services on their website, including printed photos, photo books and photo posters, all in a variety of sizes! The printed photos also come in two different options for each size too; retro and normal. Retro photos are printed with caption space underneath the image, which is a pretty cool option to have! 

I opted for non-retro, square, 4x4 images that looked like polaroid images, which I thought was quite cute! The photos are available with a glossy finish or a matte one, so I opted for glossy as I think this is a nicer photo finish than matte. 

The best thing about Printiki's photo service is the price. All of the products are far more afforable than you might think printed photos might be. For 20 prints, it costs just £4.50, which is super cheap! Printiki is based in Amsterdam, so you do have to pay a small shipping fee of £2.49, which really isn't much at all. If you want to add an extra ten prints to your order, it's an extra £2, so it really is very reasonably priced indeed!

I had no idea what to expect when the photos arrived, but I was beyond impressed. For starters, my order arrived two days after I placed it- I couldn't believe how quickly they had got to me from Amsterdam! They were also very securely packaged in a plastic photo wallet, sealed up in another wrap, put inside a padded envelope. And as for the products, well, the photos are of an incredibly high quality. The photo paper is sturdy, the glossy finish really makes the photo's look expensive and none of the photo's were blurred or pixelated- they all looked really good! 

As I only ordered 30 prints, I chose some of my favourites from the last year or so, but now that I know how excellent the quality is of these prints, how affordable they are and how quickly they get to your door, I'm definitely going to be ordering some more prints of my favourite photos! I think I'd really like to get a photo book next, to commemorate a special occasion, such as my trip to Amsterdam with my sister, or my 21st birthday. 

If you'd like to order your own creative, high quality photo products, why not check out Printiki for yourself right here or head over to their Instagram for some creative inspiration on products you can create and ways to display them once they've arrived. I've used a wire wall grid to display some of my photos, but I'm definitely going to have a look at their Insta to get some fresh ideas! 

Edit: I am now a part of the Printiki referral program! Use my code for free shipping on any orders that you make and help me to earn some extra cash :) Use the code at the checkout: RERWCFKF 

Where do you print your photo's? Have I tempted you to try out Printiki? Let me know in the comments below! 

Love from,
Florence Grace

These prints were kindly gifted to me by Printiki in exchange for a review. All thought's and opinions are my own. Please read my disclaimer for more info. 

Does Twitter really need an edit button?

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There’s one thing avid Twitter users long for more than anything else in the world- an edit button.

Every time a social media platform brings out a totally random update, you’ll see endless tweets of fury: “Instagram can give us identical snapchat filters and Twitter STILL can’t give us an edit button?!

But do we really need an edit button on Twitter? 

To me, the answer is simple: no, we do not.

You can only imagine the havoc that would be caused if people were able to tweet something and then edit it before anyone else could see it, changing their words entirely. Bullies would have an absolute field day! Tell someone to kill themselves, leave it there long enough for it to effect the individual it’s being said to and then edit it to something sweet and lovely, so that to the outside world you look like the best of friends. And not only bullies and ordinary everyday people, but imagine people in power too! You can only imagine the likes of Piers Morgan and Donald Trump being able to adjust things they had previously said to try and make them seem like less of an arse (if that's even possible...)

There’s a delete button available! If you make a mistake in your tweet that’s so bad you have to edit it out for the tweet to be deemed acceptable, then just delete the whole tweet and start from scratch! But with that being said, is anyone going to be bothered about a small error you’ve made in a tweet? Probably not. If it’s that bad, its worthy of being deleted. If its not delete-worthy, don’t worry about it! I'm almost certain no one cared if you made a small typo or forgot to include a relevant emoji. 

On the other side of things, who is making that many mistakes that they need an edit button anyway? Just check your tweets before you send them, it takes less than thirty seconds and really isn’t that hard!

While Twitter could emulate Facebooks feature of being able to reveal the original version of an edited comment, is it really worth the hassle? Do we really need an edit button to encourage people to say nasty things that they think they can then alter just for the laughs? I don’t think so. For all the drama it could cause, it just doesn’t seem worth it. Check your tweets instead!

Love from,
Florence Grace

The importance of female friends

I was always the girl who said she got on better with boys than girls. And back then, it was true. My friendship with girls was always very fickle- I had a new best friend almost every six months or so! But my friendships with boys always lasted years, I was always friends with the same boys throughout my entire school life pretty much. There’s even some boys from primary school I’m friends with now! I can’t say the same for girls.

When I went to an all girls secondary school, I decided now, more than ever, that I got on better with boys. I just didn’t fit in with girls the way I did with boys. I didn’t know how to do my hair or makeup, I didn’t wear the right clothes, I wasn’t pretty or skinny, rich or popular- all things that girls seem to care about in a friend and boys don’t. While I did have female friends, all of my closest friends, including my very best friend, were boys from the all boys school across the road.

Now that I’m older, things have changed slightly. I don’t know if it’s because I changed, or just because I met ‘better’ girls, but I started to get on better with girls than boys. While I was still drawn to having male best friends (Ben and Alec I’m looking at you!), I was drawn to having female ones too, and now have a nice mix.

Since making more close female friends, I’ve come to realise just how important female friendships are. When I was younger, more insecure in myself, other girls were always competition. Now that I’m older, wiser and a ‘woman’, I see this simply isn’t the case. The women in my life help to make me who I am. They lift me up and help me to rise, they encourage my growth and support me in all that I do- and, of course, I do the same for them.

I was encouraged to write this post after I stumbled across a post by The Indie Byline about female friendships. One quote in particular stood out to me; “...female friendships are so important. I don’t believe you can really tap into your womanhood without other women in your hood, around you to vibe with, flow through or grow with”. And it’s true! You do need other women to help you tap into your womanhood, to help you to grow. I don’t think enough girls remember this- I certainly didn’t.

Appreciate the women in your life, both friends and members of your family. Real women want to support other women, not tear them down and compete with them. Make sure you have the right women in your life to create your own tribe and watch how they help you transform.

Tap into your womanhood with other women, like The Indie Byline suggests. Then sit back and watch the magic happen. Girl Power is very real and it’s something we all need. Don’t hide from it; embrace it and learn to love the women around you.

Love from,
Florence Grace
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